Divergence

The relation between us isn't pure.

When the cognition become irrelevant, there's no reversibility.
I don't take her as a friend, but the relation still exists.
There must be some intentional consciousness.

I wouldn't call it "friendship", but this relation is truly continuing.
So pure as she,
hoping for repairing it may be a pure belief, emotional intuition.

However, as I see, her pureness is built right on the basis that
conceals all negetive emotions,
completely makes everything reasonable by deleting dark sides.

This is her pureness, also her ignorance.

I'm always conscious of her being pursuing advantages from me,
whether she does notice or not.

If I completely realize the truth behind her consciousness,
how can the relaition continue?

As for me, this is built on something no one knows!

It is my superiority.
Every time when I think of her, this superiority appears.

This explains how the contradiction exist.


This is also why the relation won't return to what it was,
and why I keep ignoring her.