Divergence

那一年，我什麼都不瞭解，只是有一個同學非常喜歡globe，拉著我跑到三重天台去買CD，老是聽她喊著地球地球的，後來我才知道她說的是globe。
國中的時候，隨著安室奈美惠在台灣一夕爆紅，製作人小室哲哉的身價也跟著水漲船高，連帶讓他旗下的藝人團體在台灣打出知名度。沒多久傳出消息，小室哲哉將帶領旗下藝人到台灣開唱，他捧紅的人很多，當時最紅的安室奈美惠、華原朋美（當時還身兼小室的正牌女友）、TRF、hitomi，當然還有我最愛的globe。
當時globe是小室哲哉唯一加入的團體，這是他的新嘗試，女主唱和饒舌歌手的搭配在歐美很一般，但當時日本還沒有這樣的團體，因此

Lilya Zilberstein為當今最受推崇的俄國鋼琴家之一，但在她音樂生涯的起步階段，卻差點因為猶太血統而被抹煞，即使在她已揚名立萬的現在，仍無法在公開地在莫斯科舉辦一場獨奏會……Lilya Zilberstein於1965年誕生於莫斯科，5歲開始學琴，1971年進入格涅辛音樂學院，尚未畢業即獲得俄羅斯聯邦大賽首獎和黎加大賽首獎，俄國在十月革命之前就有強烈的反猶主義，1983前後正值反猶聲浪最強的時候，Lilya Zilberstein因猶太血統背景，非但無法進入莫斯科音樂學院就讀，在國內比賽初選也因為猶太血統而被排擠，無法參加國際大賽。
但她不氣餒，在因緣際會下，她終於得以參加1987年的布梭尼鋼琴大賽，齊柏絲坦以絕佳的演奏技巧震懾在場聽眾，獲得大賽金牌，在歐洲引起廣大的注意，之後布梭尼大賽連續四屆冠軍從缺，成為該賽著名的「齊柏絲坦障礙」。
但是在國際大賽中得到第一名的她，回國後仍然無法得到國內認可，苦無表演機會，甚至連錄製唱片都被排除在外，反觀該次大賽第二名的非猶太籍俄國鋼琴家反而備受矚目。
幸好透過布梭尼大賽在海外打下的知名度，讓Lilya Zilberstein可以繼續音樂事業，她在莫斯科唯一的一場獨奏會在1990年5月6日，那天原本合作的女高音因身體微恙無法出席，成就了Lilya Zilberstein在莫斯科的唯一一場意外，至今她仍然未能正式公開地在莫斯科舉辦獨奏會。
目前Lilya Zilberstein已是國際上最受推崇的俄國鋼琴家之一，她與丈夫定居在德國，但她仍深深以此為憾。
鋼琴一直是我最喜歡的樂器，它的音色就像滴水落入靜止的水潭，以前我最喜歡的是Mozart的鋼琴，他的鋼琴像是瞬息不斷的小雨，清脆又乾淨，穿梭在黑白鍵盤上的雙手就像飛舞的蝴蝶。
之前偶然在youtube上看到一個短片，一個鋼琴家在舞台中央聚精會神的演奏，演奏者正是Lilya Zilberstein。那個影片的音質其實很差，但卻是我第一次接觸到俄國的古典樂。
對於俄國的藝術，不管是文學、音樂或電影，都有一股陰鬱沈重的氣息，因為他們的文化發源於一個很艱困的環境下，所以他們的作品充滿了掙扎和抵抗。青春期的我只覺得沉悶，但隨著年紀的增長，反而能感受到那股與生命的對抗的力道。
Lilya Zilberstein生於俄國，經歷困頓，並展現了頑強的意志，透過那段音質很差的影片，我感到生命確確實實地傳達過來了。
今年11月16日，Lilya Zilberstein將抵台，在國家音樂廳舉辦鋼琴獨奏會，曲目中我最期待的是，俄國音樂家拉赫曼尼諾夫的十三首前奏曲，屆時，我希望能親身聽到她的演奏。
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附上年代售票網頁，裡面有完整曲目和購票資訊：
http://www.ticket.com.tw/dm.asp?P1=0000007957

  
今年夏天，馬修連恩推出了新專輯《靈光乍現》Moving Through Twilight，這也是他的第一張鋼琴即興創作專輯，與以往顯而易見的不同是，這張專輯只用了一種樂器——純淨的鋼琴演奏，專輯封面上副標大大的寫著 ” a journey to the soul of spontaneous piano performance ” 宣示著這張專輯的突破不僅在於演奏上，而更是在於音樂本質上的突破。

這首歌收錄在Celion Dion"Falling Into You" 專輯裡，這張專輯有好幾首膾炙人口的歌，像是《因為你愛過我》的"Because You Loved Me", "To Love You More"和《征服情海》的"All By myself"...... 等等。
不過我最喜歡的還是這首"It's All Coming Back to Me Now"。
那時候我還是小國三，有一天在電視上看到這首歌的MV，故事的場景是在一個古堡，深夜Celion Dion睡在床上，穿著一襲白色洋裝，她同居的男友起身騎車出門，然後發生意外，沒辦法再回來了，可是他的鬼魂卻一直出現在Celion Dion的周圍，她夢醒後，一直感覺到他在身邊，風很大，她的衣裙隨著狂奔擺盪，可怎麼找都找不到，怎麼逃都逃不掉..
以當時的英文程度，對歌詞是一知半解的，我想，即使英文夠好，也沒辦法體會，畢竟年紀還太小，在MP3和網路還沒那麼盛行的年代，這張專輯幾乎被我翻爛，白色的歌詞本泛黃。
一直到這兩年，突然想起這首歌，發現我開始能夠體會，原來這首歌講的是回憶這件事。如影隨形的是兩個人共同的回憶，即使覺得自己幾乎都要忘了，即使自己努力抗拒，即使我以為已隨風而逝，即使我原諒我遺忘。回憶，就是會在你不留神，沒有準備的那一瞬間湧上，沒有一刻止息。
By the way, 這也是我除了獅子王的第一張英文專輯。
It's All Coming Back to Me Now
There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window
There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever
I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made
But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby Baby
If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back
There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper
There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever
But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then
But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby
When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when you kiss me like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when I touch you like that
(It's all coming back to me now)
If you do it like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And if we...
There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window
There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever
I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made
But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby Baby
If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back
There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper
There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever
But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then
But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby
When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when you kiss me like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when I touch you like that
(It's all coming back to me now)
If you do it like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And if we...

這是我高中時很喜歡的一首歌。
收錄在globe第三張專輯Love Again裡面。
Nothing Ever Makes Me Happy
 
眠ってたかも知えない                                       
窗から差しこむ日差し                                 
ただの夢の話し相手                                  
右から左  流れて行くだけ                            
心に思って  外に出せない                          
心に浮かべて  考えずぎちゃう
心に決めて  心配しつづけ
心に感じて  落ち著けないまま

Take away the sensation inside.
Bitter sweet migraine in my head.
Its like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind.
I can't take this feeling anymore.

作詞： 吳青峰 作曲： 吳青峰
編曲： 謝馨儀 演唱： 吳青峰(謝馨儀)
你的眼睛 藍色的一面海
總是太安靜 像是會有暴風雨
呼喚一個夏季 也許那天都逝去
海面閃著淚 像夢境
你的眼睛 閃爍的一面海
平靜地嘆息 灑了一片碎玻璃
穿過一座島嶼 也許那天都死去
海浪都沉默 累不累
作一場冒險的表演 走過千秋萬歲 寂寞的雲煙
下雨天 沒有地點可以擱淺
拍一張分別的紀念 努力遠走高飛 失眠的海面
地平線 彩虹消失在一瞬間
其實從頭到尾 誰又得到了水仙
其實從頭到尾 走了錯誤的航線
讓海水都沒去你我的臉 閉上眼
回到原點 一個語言兩個世界

經歷前兩個禮拜的低潮，雖然打起精神了，還是沒辦法完全平復。
今天不顧一切衝去聽的演唱會果然值得。
如果雪狼湖不算的話，這是我5年來的第一場演唱會。蘇打綠果然很能振奮人心。這真的是一場非常有誠意的演唱會！
從第一張專輯唱到第二張專輯，到之前發行的單曲，一次唱足了。

詞/小威 青峰  曲/小威
瀕臨破曉  空氣寂寥  放下尋找  等一個擁抱(等他的擁抱)
諾言煩惱  錯過就好  你了不了  沒那麼重要(我不想知道)反覆擱淺  等一片味道  這場戲演得無聊(這場戲太過無聊)
清晨三點  不許你吵  你還在胡鬧  新鮮早已退潮
停止不了  拖延不如趁早  放肆情緒發燒

Warning
This is a public service announcement.
This is only a test.
Emergency evacuation protest.
May impair your ability to operate machinery.
Can't quite down just what it means to me.
Keep out of reach of children
Don't you talk to strangers.
Get your philosphy from a bumper sticker.

海邊的卡夫卡  pp.xxx
要完美的演奏法蘭茲‧舒伯特的鋼琴奏鳴曲，是世界上最困難的作業之一。
尤其這首D大調奏鳴曲更是特別難彈。
如果把這作品的一兩個樂章單獨拿出來彈奏，
是有鋼琴家某種程度可以彈到完美地步的。
可是四個樂章都齊全，把所謂統一性擺在心裡頭聽起來時，
以我所知，就沒有一個能真正滿意的演奏了。
過去有很多著名的鋼琴家挑戰這首曲子，可是每個都有眼睛看的到的缺陷。
到現在還沒有一個人有『非他莫屬』的演奏。你想是為什麼？
因為曲子本身是不玩美的。
羅伯特‧舒曼雖然是書伯特鋼琴音樂的良好理解者，
不過連他都批評這首曲子是「天堂式的冗長」。
舒伯特的奏鳴曲，尤其是D大調奏鳴曲，
如果照那樣順順利利得彈奏的話，就不成其為藝術了。
就像舒曼評論的那樣，太過於牧歌式的，太長了，技術上也太單純。
那樣的東西如果乖乖彈的話，就沒有味道也沒有感情只不過變成古董品。
所以鋼琴家才分別加上他們的巧思和功夫。加以設計。要不這樣是撐不下去的。
不過如果不夠小心謹慎的話，那種設計往往會破壞作品的品味格調。
變成不是舒伯特的音樂了。
彈這D大調奏鳴曲的所有鋼琴家，沒有例外地全都在這兩律相悖(antinomie)的矛盾中掙扎。」